I always wanted an older male to look up to. From yinka to ajayi to lanre to adesola. I wanted someone to raise me, to guide me through life, so I learnt from their mistakes instead. When real life didn’t work, I looked to celebrities, diddy, Wesley Snipes, jack Nicholson, I just wanted some good advice and a little help. I wanted my dad to make the bullies and sexual abuse stop. That did not happen though.