Maybe I never wanted to allow any of u because I knew you wanted to do it to someone else after me ( Ruth Forrest, gang rape her and everything) and I intentionally put myself in the way by pretending not to be sure about my sexuality and rejecting girls while complimenting men so you’d strike. Then I’d body all of u like I always wanted since I’d still be in the same place as u. That way I could uncover the whole thing and deal with y’all myself.